How we would be

We would wonder, we would hesitate, we would think about what words to use, and after, we would imagine having used different words, all the different ones we could have used. We would joke to impress, to show how witty we could be, we would laugh to show how we appreciate good humor and to encourage more conversation. We would talk and talk, we would not sleep, we would share, we would comfort, we would connect. We would be inviting without inviting, until the time to invite would come. We would want more, we would want to meet, we would meet. We would wonder, we would hesitate, we would meditate, we would finally come together, we would come together to learn, to learn of each other, learn of our selves and of each other's selves, and the having of a self which we share, we would bare the self, examine the self, examine each other in the spirit of examining the self, see ourselves in the reflection of each other, we would justify ourselves in lofty words, we would examine our justifications, we would lay them bare, we would accept them as mere justifications, we would accept ourselves for wanting what we want. We would read a book together to read each other to read ourselves, we would use the book as a prop, the book as an excuse to read each other. We would leave behind the selves we were before the book, before the moment. We would make a memory of a moment with a book, with ourselves being ourselves, learning, revealing, discovering. We would remember this moment, we would think about this memory, we would wish it were different, we would wish the memory would be better, we would wish we could relive the moment. We would start to forget what it was like, we would forget, we would think of other moments, we would forget again, we would live in other moments, we would remember, we would forget again.

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