Fantasies of fantasies

She wanted him to imagine her, but only after she had started to imagine him. She didn't want him to have imagined her before she had imagined him. But she also didn't want to imagine him before he imagined her, because she didn't want to be the first to imagine. Though she had imagined him already, without knowing if he had imagined her too. Somehow it didn't seem to her that he would mind her imagining him without him having imagined her first. Now if she could get him to imagine her, she wouldn't let him know that she had imagined him already, and it would seem to him like he imagined her first, and that she had let him imagine her, that she imagined him only after he had imagined her, after she had allowed him to imagine her, after he wanted her to imagine him just as he imagined her too.

[Wrote this a while ago and forgot about it. Missing something still.]