Afraid of being afraid, of being too afraid, of being unreasonably afraid, of being afraid for the wrong reasons, afraid of being afraid when I shouldn’t be afraid, of not being afraid when I should be afraid, of not being afraid enough to do the right thing, of being afraid enough but still not doing the right thing, afraid of not knowing what the right thing is, or confusing the wrong thing for the right thing and fighting for the wrong thing, afraid of not learning what I need to learn, afraid of learning and wishing I didn’t learn, afraid of being afraid of learning, afraid of reading, of not reading, afraid of writing, afraid of not writing, of not writing in time, of being misread, of being unread, of my words being used against me, afraid of the bad feelings of others, afraid of creating my own problems, making it all seem too big when it barely even was, afraid of giving meaning to the meaningless, of wasting my life being haunted by that which was never real, afraid of giving or following the wrong advice, afraid of mediocrity, of being paralyzed by my fear of mediocrity, afraid of listing my fears and being overwhelmed by them instead of overcoming them, afraid of discovering only pointlessness in the end.
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